Of Course

It really doesn't even make sense in my head anymore, but I hate that I change my mind on this subject every fricken day. Today i'm erked and annoyed and irritated. I wish i knew why, too.

(But i don't so don't ask me.)

Like, wtf? I've never been so undecided in my life & I'm so tired of it.

But what did I expect? Nothing, actually -- I've learned not to expect anything from anyone. I learned that a longgg time ago, but its still difficult to handle when you're let down by people you trust .. or people who made you believe they could be trusted. . it's all just a very misleading situation. but of course this would happen to me.

Story of my life.