Friday, October 30, 2009
HaHaHa
"You're the gift that keeps on giving me shit i CAN'T use. Like a gift card to the Men's Warehouse. Is it for you or for me ??"
- Bassey Ikpi
I'm just sayin' :]
Right Here
"I wish you were here, but you're not here - you're there. & there doesn't know how lucky it is to have you"
- anonymous
Too sweet for words :]
- anonymous
Too sweet for words :]
Thursday, October 29, 2009
This is It
Mama Sey Mama Sah Mama Coo Sah
"20 days straight of rain in the Northeast
And Thursday the sun broke
Clear and bright and hot and perfect
But no one seemed to notice
Electronic whispers from the West
Alerted us of an angel getting her wings
We were ready for that...
Then came the noise
Loud urgent frightening
Radio waves interruped the car ride home
Rumors of cardiac arrest
His heart stopped
and my heart stopped
and I waited assuming
that this was just another one of the things
that they say about him
that I am not going to believe
until they prove it
And Katie Couric confirmed it
And I didn't believe that either
and my girlfriend called
and I didn't believe her either
and my sister called and wanted to know if I was devastated
and I had to ask God for forgiveness
I had idolized him
I was surprised when
I found out
he wouldn't live forever
And the flashbacks started
and how was I ever going to be Michael Jackson
if my mother wouldn't let me get a curl?
but she did get me the doll
and the Beat it shirt
and the glittery socks
and when he stepped on stage
in 1988
I was all up in there
And I cried
then
and again that morning
He touched lives
Spending his time
on earth as a smile maker
setting trends with his unusual behavior
that perpetual child-like wierdness
and we accepted it
and anyone who says they didn't attempt the Thriller dance
is a liar"
(continuation..)
"20 days straight of rain in the Northeast
And Thursday the sun broke
Clear and bright and hot and perfect
But no one seemed to notice
Electronic whispers from the West
Alerted us of an angel getting her wings
We were ready for that...
Then came the noise
Loud urgent frightening
Radio waves interruped the car ride home
Rumors of cardiac arrest
His heart stopped
and my heart stopped
and I waited assuming
that this was just another one of the things
that they say about him
that I am not going to believe
until they prove it
And Katie Couric confirmed it
And I didn't believe that either
and my girlfriend called
and I didn't believe her either
and my sister called and wanted to know if I was devastated
and I had to ask God for forgiveness
I had idolized him
I was surprised when
I found out
he wouldn't live forever
And the flashbacks started
and how was I ever going to be Michael Jackson
if my mother wouldn't let me get a curl?
but she did get me the doll
and the Beat it shirt
and the glittery socks
and when he stepped on stage
in 1988
I was all up in there
And I cried
then
and again that morning
He touched lives
Spending his time
on earth as a smile maker
setting trends with his unusual behavior
that perpetual child-like wierdness
and we accepted it
and anyone who says they didn't attempt the Thriller dance
is a liar"
(continuation..)
This is It Pt 2
(continuation..)
and he may have been lonely
but he was never alone
we were rocking with him
and his human nature
and we remember the time
he was starting something
and the man in the mirror
shared that beat of love...
And when he said mama say mama sah moo mah coo sah
we knew exactly what he was speaking of
the broad nose on the handsome brown face
didn't stay
but the gift
never went anywhere
He didn't change the game
he came up with it
father of three kids
but daddy to everyone who has stepped on stage since
and he left too much of himself behind
to ever really be missed
And I choose to believe
that when they call roll in Paradise
he'll be on the VIP list
setting the party off
like he always has.
We love you Michael."
--Lynnette Johnson
and he may have been lonely
but he was never alone
we were rocking with him
and his human nature
and we remember the time
he was starting something
and the man in the mirror
shared that beat of love...
And when he said mama say mama sah moo mah coo sah
we knew exactly what he was speaking of
the broad nose on the handsome brown face
didn't stay
but the gift
never went anywhere
He didn't change the game
he came up with it
father of three kids
but daddy to everyone who has stepped on stage since
and he left too much of himself behind
to ever really be missed
And I choose to believe
that when they call roll in Paradise
he'll be on the VIP list
setting the party off
like he always has.
We love you Michael."
--Lynnette Johnson
From Here to Spain
"Ode to the good ones "
The promise keepers
Fearless leaders
Bedtime story readers
Corporate warriors
Silent soldiers
Commanders of inner peace
Slayers of Beasts!
Scripture quoting
Election voting
Bible toting
Lawn mowing
Daddies
Three cheers for the curled bicep
Where the new baby slept
And also served as tree branch from which her older sister could swing
Much respect to
The gentle hand of discipline
That would applaud at dance recitals
And when the children's choir would sing
21 gun salute
To the ones that add value to a community
Steering clear of stereotypical buffoonery
Giving their daughters immunity
From all the negative statistics
Because they are employed, present and consistent
Big-up to the children of men
Who had to read about abuse and neglect to know what it meant
Let's throw a parade for the payers of student loans
For children who are grown
And have not yet earned a degree
Who say they are happy no matter what their kids do
And just want to see them happy
Let's give a hand clap to the men who can stand and say
Barack ain't the only brotha that loves his family
Kudos to the men who set a standard with the bar so high
It's no wonder his daughters ain't married.
For the only man who's love I have never doubted
My Daddy."
--Lynnette Johnson
Brilliance =]
The promise keepers
Fearless leaders
Bedtime story readers
Corporate warriors
Silent soldiers
Commanders of inner peace
Slayers of Beasts!
Scripture quoting
Election voting
Bible toting
Lawn mowing
Daddies
Three cheers for the curled bicep
Where the new baby slept
And also served as tree branch from which her older sister could swing
Much respect to
The gentle hand of discipline
That would applaud at dance recitals
And when the children's choir would sing
21 gun salute
To the ones that add value to a community
Steering clear of stereotypical buffoonery
Giving their daughters immunity
From all the negative statistics
Because they are employed, present and consistent
Big-up to the children of men
Who had to read about abuse and neglect to know what it meant
Let's throw a parade for the payers of student loans
For children who are grown
And have not yet earned a degree
Who say they are happy no matter what their kids do
And just want to see them happy
Let's give a hand clap to the men who can stand and say
Barack ain't the only brotha that loves his family
Kudos to the men who set a standard with the bar so high
It's no wonder his daughters ain't married.
For the only man who's love I have never doubted
My Daddy."
--Lynnette Johnson
Brilliance =]
I Dare You
"People love others not for who they are, but for how they make them feel."
- Irwin Federman
"Love comes when manipulation stops; when you think more about the other person than about his/her reactions to you; when you dare to reveal yourself fully. When you dare to be vulnerable"
- Dr. Joyce Brothers
- Irwin Federman
"Love comes when manipulation stops; when you think more about the other person than about his/her reactions to you; when you dare to reveal yourself fully. When you dare to be vulnerable"
- Dr. Joyce Brothers
Monday, October 26, 2009
Real Talk
I do a lot of not so smart things on the regular. It's this weird impulse that pulls me towards things. My brain says, "stop it. You know this is wrong." Meanwhile my heart says, "It's different this time." I'm always ignoring one thing or the other. Trying to pretend that things are fine or "normal". I'm not exactly sure I know what "normal" is. I'm pretty sure I'm not it though.
I tend to watch people and situations. Trying to figure out certain things and I've come to the conclusion that I'm not normal. And I want to be. I want to be normal. I want to be some regular girl with regular emotions and regular ways of expressing and living and loving and laughing. This other way, gets too hard. It gets too big. It gets too confusing.and frustrating. And exhausting. And stupid. I feel like I'm doing it wrong. All of it. But I don't know how to do it differently. Normally i'd be extermely mad at myself right now. And I'd be so disappointed and I'd feel like I failed. And I'm not sure how to talk myself out of it. or back rather.I'm just too much.
Too difficult. Too intense. I'm not an easy person to know or love. And I used to be ok with that. Now it's just lonely.
And it's not poetic or profound. It's just what it is. I'm just really fucking exhausted.And the smart part of me (the part that's left) knows it's not real; that it's all mind tricks and broken brain but it feels real.And all I know is what I feel. And that's all I got. I don't have much else. I need to figure out how to talk myself out of this.It just feels big. I can't see past it. And I hate that I have to be this open and raw nerved because people dont' respect it.They want you to be strong and brave and courageous and sometimes you just feel small and scared and exposed. And it sucks.You kinda just want one dry faced day. One moment when your stomach isn't folded into itself. A period when the mind is quiet and not racing. When you dont' feel like you're always doing something wrong. or about to.
I feel like I'm always breaking someone or something.
I know I look tiny but I feel like I break everything I touch. I'm doing the best I can. I really am but it doesn't feel like enough.
*sigh*
:)
I tend to watch people and situations. Trying to figure out certain things and I've come to the conclusion that I'm not normal. And I want to be. I want to be normal. I want to be some regular girl with regular emotions and regular ways of expressing and living and loving and laughing. This other way, gets too hard. It gets too big. It gets too confusing.and frustrating. And exhausting. And stupid. I feel like I'm doing it wrong. All of it. But I don't know how to do it differently. Normally i'd be extermely mad at myself right now. And I'd be so disappointed and I'd feel like I failed. And I'm not sure how to talk myself out of it. or back rather.I'm just too much.
Too difficult. Too intense. I'm not an easy person to know or love. And I used to be ok with that. Now it's just lonely.
And it's not poetic or profound. It's just what it is. I'm just really fucking exhausted.And the smart part of me (the part that's left) knows it's not real; that it's all mind tricks and broken brain but it feels real.And all I know is what I feel. And that's all I got. I don't have much else. I need to figure out how to talk myself out of this.It just feels big. I can't see past it. And I hate that I have to be this open and raw nerved because people dont' respect it.They want you to be strong and brave and courageous and sometimes you just feel small and scared and exposed. And it sucks.You kinda just want one dry faced day. One moment when your stomach isn't folded into itself. A period when the mind is quiet and not racing. When you dont' feel like you're always doing something wrong. or about to.
I feel like I'm always breaking someone or something.
I know I look tiny but I feel like I break everything I touch. I'm doing the best I can. I really am but it doesn't feel like enough.
*sigh*
:)
Friday, October 23, 2009
Honestly
"If I had one gift that I could give you, my friend, it would be the ability to see yourself as others see you, because only then would you know how extremely special you are."
--B.A. Billingsly
Sometimes a reminder is always good too :)
--B.A. Billingsly
Sometimes a reminder is always good too :)
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Plain, Simple Truth
If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.Slower is better.Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't 'be friends'. A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle.
If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think 'it will get better' You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything.* He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behavior.* Change comes from within.
Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... Even if he has more education or in a better job.
Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else's man.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs.
You should not be the one doing all the bending... Compromise is two way street.
You need time to heal between relationships...
There is nothing cute about baggage.... Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... A relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals... Look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.
Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted
Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man.
Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.*
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.Scared of being alone is what makes a lot of women stay in relationships that are abusive or hurtful: Dr. Phil
You should know that:You're the best thing that could ever happen to anyone and if a man mistreats you, he'll miss out on a good thing. If he was attracted to you in the 1st place, just know that he's not the only one.
They're all watching you, so you have a lot of choices. Make the right one.
Ladies take care of your own hearts...
WORD:)
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.Slower is better.Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't 'be friends'. A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle.
If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think 'it will get better' You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything.* He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behavior.* Change comes from within.
Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... Even if he has more education or in a better job.
Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else's man.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs.
You should not be the one doing all the bending... Compromise is two way street.
You need time to heal between relationships...
There is nothing cute about baggage.... Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... A relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals... Look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.
Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted
Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man.
Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.*
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.Scared of being alone is what makes a lot of women stay in relationships that are abusive or hurtful: Dr. Phil
You should know that:You're the best thing that could ever happen to anyone and if a man mistreats you, he'll miss out on a good thing. If he was attracted to you in the 1st place, just know that he's not the only one.
They're all watching you, so you have a lot of choices. Make the right one.
Ladies take care of your own hearts...
WORD:)
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Hunting Season
As i sit here waiting for my math class to begin, im thinking about this shitty ass weather and how fricken cold it is and then i remember that it's also boo loving season. People are on the motherfuckin battlefield looking for ppl to snuggle with during those cold nights. And once summer roles around again..or even spring, they start dropping 'em like flies.
But back to this hunting. It reminds me of that old bugs bunny/ daffy duck skit "rabbit season/duck season-rabbit season/duck season!" Ah, one of the classics. but anyways..i just want to vent really quickly and say that i dnt want to recruit just ONE cuddler. Is that bad? Im sorry that i have too much pep in my step for one person. But thats where the double standard comes in..and quite frankly, i dont give a shit.
So what i'm an equal opportunity employer. So-thefuck-what?? Dudes do it all the time. Flip 'em like cups. Some more than others ...some much more than others...some, extremely more than others to the point where it might even become unhealthy *cough*cough*
But thats not what im trying to pursue. I just like keeping my options open. I mean, for the love of God Halloween's coming and thats just the most wonderful time of the year!
But im pretty sure this madness will just last until halloween. And after that i can almost guarantee that i'm guna wanna start the hunting game myself.
A girl's gotta settle down eventually.
But back to this hunting. It reminds me of that old bugs bunny/ daffy duck skit "rabbit season/duck season-rabbit season/duck season!" Ah, one of the classics. but anyways..i just want to vent really quickly and say that i dnt want to recruit just ONE cuddler. Is that bad? Im sorry that i have too much pep in my step for one person. But thats where the double standard comes in..and quite frankly, i dont give a shit.
So what i'm an equal opportunity employer. So-thefuck-what?? Dudes do it all the time. Flip 'em like cups. Some more than others ...some much more than others...some, extremely more than others to the point where it might even become unhealthy *cough*cough*
But thats not what im trying to pursue. I just like keeping my options open. I mean, for the love of God Halloween's coming and thats just the most wonderful time of the year!
But im pretty sure this madness will just last until halloween. And after that i can almost guarantee that i'm guna wanna start the hunting game myself.
A girl's gotta settle down eventually.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Queen
A woman's body is her temple. She must surround it with only kings who are man enough to fight the way but never dumb enough to touch the queen."
--Jasmine McCrawford
--Jasmine McCrawford
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Monday, October 12, 2009
ALDS - NYY
Math to Victory: 11 Total Playoff Wins to become World Series Champs.
So far:
3 Wins = ALDS Champs
Awaiting:
4 Wins = ALCS Champs [& American League Champs]
Followed by:
4 WS Wins = World Series Champs !
Let's hope for the best!!!!
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
TAG. You're it
Finally ! So, after trying to go to this spot--the NuyoRican Poets Cafe--for SO longggg: we finally went! And it was soooo much fun. I honestly felt so liberated to just listen to the way these poets played with their worlds, it was magical. i swear. I dont want to sound cheesy but that's honestly how i felt. The entire vibe was amazing. AND we managed to find parking right across the street, lol.
But the NuyoRican cafe is a small and chill ass place. The entire place is so sexy, i couldn't even handle it. Of course my homegirl (lol) Mahogony Browne was the MC for that night's poetry slam and shorty is funny and witty and clever (Oh my! lol) and she was definitely holdin' it down that night. Not to mention we started the night off by dancing to "Poison" which loosened everybody up.
Can we discuss the poets/poems tho? My friend and I were diggin' this one poet a lot so we went halves on his book and now we have dude's stuff. He's a highschool teacher up in Brooklyn which i thought was very dope and he was the one who started it off for the night and I was definitely feelin' him.
The poets were all unique in their own ways. Some had very strong and powerful deliveries while others just let their words start their own movement. Either way respect was given because they definitely held it down. The only girl of the Slam "Lauryn Hill lookalike" was HOLDIN' IT DOWN! ..and i mean HOLDING.IT.DOWN. Her first poem had people fidgeting out of their seats, she was soo intense! (and cute, according to my friend lol). The winner of the slam was dope too..his messages were real and i know everyone could connect at some point or another.
Overall, it was a really amazing experience that i enjoyed on so many levels. Plus, I had the company of some really amazing people which made it THAT much better =]
#shout to the Poet who left everyone with their jaws on the ground with the ending of his poem.
#shout to the newly engaged couple too. Too cute <3
Thursday, October 1, 2009
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