HUG

*runs toward you with arms open*

I don't even know where to begin. I've missed you, blog! And i totally take full responsibility for neglecting you and will be ready to receive all the penalties that come with my misbehavior. I hope you can one day forgive me and we can move on towards positivity. Hopefully that day is today because I'm already over it. *shrug*

But i'd like to start by displaying this poem by Bassey Ikpi to you:

asked you to stay the night
too late to drive so far
I said
had your safety in mind
surprised when you said yes
the way you did
mumbling something about winter
in the city and snow
I shrugged
too tired to discuss
offered you the couch
hoping you'd take the bed
surprised when you did
now I lay in arms that smell familiar
fingers laced with mine
can count your breath on my eyelids

vaguely recall caress and kiss
hands on hips
moving counter clock
lost all track of time
feel body half on mine

I high on dreams
didn't know you were real
until your scent found my pillow
rolled over saw your face
just to the right of my everything

fingertips brush lips
dance across cheeks
don't remember your breath so steady
don't remember your skin so soft
don't remember loving you this much
you, so beautiful and calm in sleep
I, restless want to steal your peace
make it mine
like you should be

vaguely recall caress and kiss
hands on hips
you on lips
now feel arm around waist
pull me close
knees find thighs
nose find place where shoulder meets neck
feel my breath on your eyelids
find my scent
watch my name escape as whisper
exist as dance
across cheeks
brush lips
breath steady
skin so soft
don't remember loving you this much
can barely breathe now
from holding air
can't move
can't let
you
high on dreams
me lost in memory
remembering
when you and I
were we
were us
were meant to be
breath so steady
skin so soft
remembering when you loved me
this much

genius.