Second Guessing

Never get the urge to do a garbage can search. That's just OD, lol. But ladies do tend to get crazy and its not really a good look but it occurs.


"I have a habit of putting my all into every situation, and although I already know it to be fact- I could never fully get with loving somebody whole heartedly and not getting that shit back"


So now I'm three cars back trailing you on the freeway .. ;] LMAO

Skirts vs. Tshirts

If you could see that I'm the one who
understands you.. been here ALL along
so why cant you see. you belong w/ me

What you've been looking for has
been here the W H O L E time.


--c'mon. a 17 yr old girl wrote that shit and as simple as the lyrics are you KNOWWWW every woman out there can identify at one point or another in their lives. and the video's really cute too. The whole "Iloveyou" and "Iloveyou" note carrds at the end. c'monnnnnnn. broke my heart, lol. There's no way anyone can NOT like this song. it's too incredible to pass up. Maybe im overreacting but i love it. just loveeeeee it =]

Midnight

I've been feeling a lot of positive energy lately and I just want to share it and blog as much as i can about it so i can look back at these hours and remind myself of better times.

Its kind of dark in my living room and i'm watching Frasier, sitting on my "hott ass leather couch" and i must admit im sticking to it but that's cool. I've had worse. Lol

Today in the quad some people came up to Martin and I asking if we were interested in working for Ambercrombie and Fitch at Garden State Plaza. And I hate retail with a fricken passion, and as much as I hate my current job, its IMPOSSIBLE for me to go back to minimum wage. Thats just crazy. Plus A&F smells like straight cologne in there and i would die of respiratory problems.

But it gave me an insentive to get off my ass and find something better. And now's better than never so starting next week my job search begins.

and i'm Excited !!! =]

Okay, dudes ..enough midnight blogging for tonight. This laptop on my lap plus this couch is really making me sweat. And not the good kind ;] Goodnight!

Exactlyyyy

It's as if she's typing up my heart's emotions and my minds thoughts.
It's insane, bananas and i dont even know how to react. This is -verbatum- what I was thinking about, oh sayy..3 weeks ago. Craziness, lol.

it is my testimony to give. Not someone elses to divulge, and their doing so disturbs me. I just feel like the longer I live, the more I am learning to not trust people. And maybe I'm naive, but I don't want to have to think this way. I want people to say something and mean it. Do something and stand by it. Prove themselves consistent. Faithful. Loyal.

That may be a stretch, because I feel like my loyalty only lies within few (who have proven themselves worthy), but I like to believe that I am a woman of my word and I don't lead people to believe things about me or the relationships I am involved in that is otherwise. So, I don't understand why other people find the need to, unless their ulterior motive lies in getting close to people just so they can know their personal business for their benefit.

And if that's the case-when it comes to me, all you have to do is ask. I'm living life and making mistakes the same as everyone else. It's all good. You don't have to put on a facade. If you're that interested in my doings as they relate to you (if they even relate to you), just say so. I'd actually find your bluntness commendable. Closed mouths don't get fed, and we all got to eat. I understand.

I’ve stopped allowing my Ex to pretend that we are friends, as it served no purpose but to allow him to feel better about the situation . When I need him, he is never around. When I want him, he is never around. I got high friend standards and he ain’t meetin em. So why call it friendship when he only serves as a second tier acquaintance. I honestly don’t think he knows how to truly be someone’s friend.

I gotta stop trickin off wit these young and nubile hoe ass dudes. They fun and shit but you can’t keep em. Plus, I think I wanna have some babies one day and these non-committal, “It’s all about me” kinda guys aren’t gonna cut it.

and look at how pretty this poem is:

“For all we know,
We may never meet again.
Before you go, make this moment sweet again.
We won’t say goodnight until the last minute.
I’ll hold out my hand and my heart will be in it.

For all we know this may only be a dream.
We come and we go like the ripples of a stream.
So love me, love me tonight. Tomorrow was made for some.
Tomorrow may never come,
For all we know.”

Rebecca McFadden, Poet

I meeeeeeeeeeeeeean, ...SMH

The Truth

Hahahahahaha. I like this one =] It's clever.



i'm.JUST.sayin

Impressed

I love when i come across new and interesting things. Especially when those things are new ideas that help me mentally and intellectually and so with that said, i came across this new blog, pretty much by mistake but this is pretty much everything i've ever wanted to say to ANYONE, ever. How appropriate after a hectic trip like Miami to just come and bring myself back to reality with some real, deep talk.

Here's the link: http://turningwordsintoverbs.blogspot.com

Please, check it out.
I think i've read all of her entries this and last year so far. Yeah, its that dope. Soo many things I can relate to. Just seems so fitting and appropriate right now.

Enjoy =]

Miami Evaluation

Loved it =]

Some of the memorable times were definitely the laugh attacks and jokes:
LMFAO

"yeah, you like that shit?" -Martin
"Yeah, he was a puerto rican. -A what? A puerto rican. They don't exist anymore"-Martin
"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH" --the julio scream by Joaquin
"an Ikea Lamp" -Martin

those are the few I remember now but i know there were def more in just those 3short days.



But, you don't understand how much it pained me to see my boy get hurt like that. If i knew anything like that was gunna go down i would've rather everyone just stay home. that really fucked up my mind. i wouldnt wanna see ANY of my friends like that =[