the people that i love

In no particular order

1. Jenny Ri
2. Anwar H
3. Me, myself, and i
4. Ronda the Honda
5.
6.
7.
8.

And that concludes my list.

Goodday.

i hate Mr.LM

Hands Down

There are certain things about the opposite sex that I find so incredibly sexy that it makes me become that much more intrigued. Of course the usual things, shoulders - arms - back ..Oh boy, yeah. THOSE.

(thinks about the God she saw on campus and probably will never see again *tear*)

But, after a good amount of thought. And i do mean GOOD amount of thought, I probably have been thinking about this for like 3 weeks, I've come to the conclusion that i loveeee a man with "Man-ly Hands" .

Okay, let me explain.

Have you ever seen a man with hands so masculine
you just want to hold and analyze them forever
A pair of palms so inviting to hold you
A set of hands whose fingers you interlock with and feel protected
Those same fingers that'll get caught up within the curls of your hair
slowly putting you to sleep
only to wake up and find those same sexy hands around your waist
The same hands that can lift anything
including you, during times of passion
And still lay you down. ever-so gently with Never-so gently intentions
Caressingly-nurturing hands
Hands that wave at you through crowded rooms
and lure you into a realm of comfort
and hands that point you in the direction of their hearts.
Where even the occasional hand-shake
can mean more than just "Hello"

I'm Not Crazy

Okay so plain and simple: don't think im crazy. Seriously, i was at Barnes and Noble trying to find a cause for my boredom and i ended up masking my boredom completely. And I came across these Kama Sutra books and said to myself, "Fuck It, let's take a look."

And well dayum.
Now maybe i'm crazy but this one had me with a puzzled look on my face. and still as i look at it now I can feel my face tensing up to a look of confusion. I just don't get it. Seems hella awkward. Oh well, decide for yourselves:



but besides this I did manage to pick up some good reading material. Some memoirs on the Kennedy family, a book on how to prepare for the LSATs and another copy of "I Hope they Serve Beer In Hell" since i lost the first one and neeeeeed this hilarious book in my life.

and so AGAIN, before i leave you with these tidbits there are just some tips on what NOT to do:
1. don't judge me
2. don't pull my hair

LMAO jkkkkkkk on that second one. but yeah, don't judge me and i won't judge you (in public) =]

DUMBinican

Is this just "Manny being Manny" ?
I'm tired of people making excuses for this man. Like 3 years ago, when he was playing left field for the RedSox and tried to cut off the ball from the center-fiedler when he had NO business cutting it off. It goes Centerfielder-shortstop/secondbasemen-etc. No where in that equation are other outfielders supposed to jump in the way. and if you look at the youtube clip, he literally JUMPS in the way. Like, wtf are you doing? How he didn't show up to practices and team meetings up in Boston because he's "Manny" and his catastrophically large salary means he can do whatver he wants.

Yeeeeaaaaaah, okay.
Steinbrenner would've booted his ass years ago. Yeah he's a big game hitter, and one has one hell of a swing but his character is in shambles. I understand you're not paying for character but team chemistry has a lot to do with it. Hence, why the Sox were dying to get rid of him and why no other team in baseball would take him.

Now this steroid scandal. I'm not gonna lie i'm a bit remorseful in this case just because Arod is going/went through the same things and unfortunately, it's a lot to deal with. Manny claims he didn't know, it was medically prescribed to him, yaddayadda heard it all before. But, honestly the only reason i defended Arod is because he wears my beloved uniform and i'd never turn my back on a Yankee-EVER. but maybe the only reason i'm going so hard on this MannySteroid thing is because he used to be a RedSock not too long ago and im pretty sure he was using then. And you know us Yankee fans, anythinggggggg to harass the Bostonians and we'll jump on it as soon as it rolls by.

Also why Im being a tad sympathetic is because he plays for Torre. My beloved, old, serene, used-to-hold-Jeter's-bat-during-every-game, pigeon-toed-walking-to-the-pitchers-mound, bald-except-for-some-flurries Torre. And he don't need/deserve this kind of hoopla. Not now anyway..he been through all that with the Yankees and im pretty sure he took the L.A. job to get away from all that jazz. and of course Manny follows him..Some bullshit,lol.

And so, to Manny Ramirez--because your suspension ends on my birthday [july3,for those who dont know] i say these three kind words to you:

FuckYourLife.

Careless

If i said i didn't care, I'd be lying because its obvious i care TOO much.

And i have my moments where i put up a front and act as if it doesn't phaze me or as if i don't even notice but, i do. And it suckssss. This is mainly because my pride is blinding that i refuse to have anyone knock it down. And when someone gets even remotely close to my knocking my pride, i get defensive and tense up. And i guess i get advice on how NOT to be the way i am but, .. i don't really know how to put that to use.

i guess what I'm tryng to say here -i know I'm sounding a bit vague- is that I'm a very possessive person. What's mine is mine until i say otherwise .. And when that is being threatened, you'll be able to notice my mood change. But that's all it'll be, a mood change because i front like it doesn't bother me when really, all i wanna say is exactly how i feel. But i don't know how to do that, and i really need to learn how.

I'm not really good at saying how i feel, or asking for what i want. Because i feel its assumed and even though things should be real clear-cut, i don't see myself ever being that blunt. Why this is bothering me today, i don't really know.. But i didn't have a good cinco de mayo, last night was very traumatic for me and the night just didn't seem to end, and when I'm unhappy my mind wanders and i digg myself deeper into negative thoughts.

Truth is I'm farrrrr from careless. I'm also starting to re-think if its that i care too much. i think its just that i don't know how to care to begin with.

Does that make sense to you? Because it doesn't to me. And i think that's the point =/

Embarrassing

I'd rather die.
Than experience this embarrasingly embarrassing moment.

Seriously, FML

Goodnight

On strike

That's maddddd funny how homeboy thinks shit is mad sweet. How you can call me, asking me to do you a favor and lie for you and to you, and then roll up like nothing-has-happened.

*oh really??*
And of course you're thinking you can reel (sp?) me back in by being so ridiculously kind, its disgusting. Cute. Sometimes, too cute ..but disgusting. And your generosity is out of this world when you feel you aren't getting the "attention" you crave. But that's cool becuz i can be a bitch and just take,take,take .. Or i can nip it in the bud (again!) and (try) to send you on your merry way. And as hard as that would be, and as difficult as it sounds.. Aren't you tired?!
Cause i sure as hell am
It might not seem it as first and i agree, i sometimes enjoy the tomandjerry game we got goin but .. Ya!

Steps to make a disasterous mess - aka "this"

1. Gather your two confused individuals
2. After having them cool in different locations together for a lengthy period of time, seperate individuals
3.Pre-heat discussion to about 425degrees
4.Gather a large enough bowl and add 2 cups of yearning. 1tablespoon of lust and 1teaspoon of wishful thinking.
5. Add two confused individuals and stir
6. Let sit for about 2weeks
7. Insert in overheated oven
8. At this point you will have forgotten about your mixture and it will burn
9. TRUST me : it will burn
10. After attempting to cool, one individual will miraculously resurrect
11. Add icing to cool off and wait to bake this mess all over again in 4-6weeks

*sigh*